Its never easy to lose a fellow pet you cared highly for and loved. I lost a snake awhile back that i truely loved, she was perfect, never stuck or showed any aggression. Come to find out she had a spinal deformaty and had no chance of living so i had to watch her suffer....needless to say i still have her enclosure setup to this day. I havnt had the heart to take it down. I still even cry sometimes still...your right, its not easy.
I wish you the best of luck getting over this Tiff.